This has been a wonderful summer for me. After five years of study I passed a written test and in July I did an oral panel and passed. My studies were to become a Religious Science Practitioner. I do Spiritual guidance using the Laws of Cause and Effects and others, Spiritual Principles,  How life got to be the way it is, Listening, being present to Spirit and my own intuitive nature and affirmative prayer. After passing my panels I was given the honor to officiate my youngest son’s wedding. The wedding it self was magical, beautiful and heart felt. My son’s new in-laws went to great lengths to make sure the wedding was everything a young couple could imagine a wedding can be. Then my next great experience was that I had an opportunity to be videoed for my church. In the video I speak about Oneness and loving what doesn’t fit in your box. If you’ve read my blog you know that I’m speaking about Transgender but it really goes beyond that. It’s recognizing that all people are here by Divine Design and that Love is Love and we are here to Love and respect all beings. And today is my birthday.

When I turned fifty I felt fabulous I was on top of  the world. I had released my job of twenty years, I was spending time with my grandchildren and I was in the beginning stages of my journey to become a Religious Science Practitioner. Life felt so good and I knew it was smooth sailing ahead. I couldn’t have been more wrong. A few months after my fiftieth birthday my beautiful nine year old granddaughter Bella died. My beautiful Bella, she was like me, an August baby, born a leader, strong, stubborn, and so curious. Like me she had a natural happy nature. Yeah, life was tough at times but she’d smile, laugh, tell silly jokes and she loved to sing and dance.  I believe life doesn’t end when the body dies. I believe that who you are as a Soul continues on and I very much believe Bella’s presence is with me. Yet, that doesn’t mean I don’t grieve. I do. I miss her, I wonder what she’d look like at thirteen. I have two other granddaughters and they have changed so much over the past years but Bella seems to stay nine in my mind but I know if she was here she would be different in many ways and at the same time she’d always be my sweet beautiful Bella.

I have other fears well I grieve. Sometimes I worry I might loose one of my other grandchildren or something might happen to my children. Some people believe grieving ends but if it does I’m not sure where. It doesn’t mean I’m not happy because I am but today on my fifty-fourth birthday I’m having some moments of loss and sadness. I have my last birthday presents from Bella and they make me smile and they make me cry.

Then there is that deep happiness and joy I get from my other grandchildren and children. Yesterday my youngest granddaughter who just turned thirteen made me a cake and bought me two huge bags of Reese’s Peanut butter Cups. And my oldest granddaughter who is fifteen made me cookies. Maybe the most beautiful cookies I’ve ever seen. They look like purple roses.

Yes, I grieve but I know that is part of my life and it’s also what makes me love what I have so much. I am blessed to have such a beautiful family but all families have there waves of ups and downs and wins and losses.

It’s my birthday and I am grateful for all that I have. The Joys and the tears.

One Life, One God, One Love

In Divine Love all is Possible

I am grateful

Amen

 

I believe we are all One. I believe that each of us are of the Divine, Spirit, God, and Love call It what you want. I believe each of us are here as an expression of God and here to express ourselves as our true selves not as the world thinks we should. I believe I am here to respect all beings and to understand and know every life force is part of what I am.

A few years back my child came out as transgender Female to Male. My child was thirty-four years old. He had spent his whole life trying to fit in and figure out who he was. I love my child unconditionally like any other mom. Jay had many behaviors and many signs but I did not get it. To be honest I believe Jay didn’t either. I’m not sure what his thoughts were but I try to imagine to myself what it might feel like if people told me I was a man and I know I am a woman. Generally women wearing men’s clothes is not a big deal but if I am dressing up for an occasion I most certainly do not want to be dressed in a tux. In saying that I don’t believe clothes have gender. I believe society says, “hey this is what boys wear and this is what girls wear.” And of course being part of society I choose to wear what I perceive as feminine clothing.  Jay has two younger brothers and boys get to do many things girls are not allowed to do. One such things is go shirtless. While living in Germany this was not a problem. I let Jay go without a shirt all the time but here in the states a seven year old girl without a shirt can almost be construed as sexual abuse. At seven Jay struggled and I gave in and told her she didn’t have to wear her shirt to do the dishes but she couldn’t go outside that way. It was difficult for Jay to see her brothers out side climbing trees and playing on the swings without a shirt on a hot day. Jay thought it was extremely unfair and felt unloved I’m sure.

As time went on Jay became very self-conscious of his body. He had breast and he hated them. He didn’t feel comfortable in his own body. Some might say they’re not comfortable in their body but that doesn’t mean they’re trans but for Jay there was something deep down nagging in her and I believe she had an idea but she couldn’t name it or share it with anyone. She was unable to say, “Mom, I’m a boy.” You see I had already determined based on her genitalia, she was a girl and that is how most of society decide what someone’s gender is.

Jay went into the military as a woman and tried to fit in, got married had children and tried to fit in society’s safe box but he was never happy and things became very difficult for him. Jay has his own story to tell but I wanted to share these things to let people know I am aware of how it feels to love and accept someone that doesn’t fit in society’s idea of what life should look like.

What if we could look at someone have a conversation and accept and love them just as they express without expecting them to show-up as society says they should? What if we see a person with a full beard, lipstick, a skirt and high heels and just say, “Hello my friend it’s nice see you.”? What if we can love people that don’t exactly fit in the box society has set for us?

If I am One with all things and beings, to not love One that does not fit in my box is to not love myself.

One God, One Life, One Love

In Spirit all is possible.

I know God moves through and around all beings

I know love is love and each human is here to express openly and freely.

I am grateful!

And So It Is!

As a young mom raising three children I did the best I knew how. I believed if I worked hard and made sure my children’s basic needs were made they would do fine. I also told myself I would never go on welfare or ask anyone to help me pay my bills. With three kids and no help that meant three jobs. Guess what? I was out there working three jobs and no one was at home taking care of my children. As with everything in life there is a consequence good or bad however you look at it. Leaving three kids on their own while I was at work, things got really tough. Many things happened that I can never change and when I think about them it makes me sad. One thing I can do is learn from the mistakes I’ve made.

As life would have it, I am raising a second generation. Guess what? I’ve learned to ask for help. I’ve learned asking for help is not a weakness but a strength. I want the best for my grandchildren and experience has shown me if I want the best I have to be my best. I’m not my best after working three jobs, I’m tired. Once I realized I was going to be  raising my grandchildren I decided to release my jobs and raise my grandchildren. People thought I was nuts but I knew better. No, I didn’t have to go on welfare. I prayed and I took the next step. Spirit always give us the next step.

My grandchildren have all that they need and they have a grandmother who enjoys them and listens to them. It’s not been perfect but it’s been good. I’ve taken parenting classes and even cooking classes and now once in a while I facilitate a Love and Logic class.

Spirit is my guide and in Spirit all things are possible!

I was once told that doing something for someone that isn’t yours to do but theirs, doesn’t make you nice. I believe this is a good lesson in life. For some it starts with being a mom. We pick up after our children, we clean their rooms, we do their homework and the list goes on. Others it starts with family members and the resentment starts to build up.

It really doesn’t matter where it started, it matters what the feeling is you have within. If you do something for someone and you are automatically happy and glad to do it, then it’s for you to do. But, on the other hand if you have that nagging feeling that says, “don’t do it,” but then you do it anyway and you feel resentful that’s a signal it wasn’t yours to do.

Doing something for someone because you believe you are being kind can actually be stunting their personal growth. I always liked the story of the butterfly. When one day a human tried to help the butterfly by breaking the cocoon so the butterfly could get out easier and then the butterfly died because it’s wings were not strong enough to fly. People too, at times have to experience hard times to grow and get stronger and learn from those difficult times in their lives. It’s often the people that are the most successful in life that had the toughest roads to cross.

I believe that life doesn’t have to be all ease and grace for us to be happy, it’s life’s experiences and how we respond to them is what makes us happy or not.

Be nice, do what is yours to do and let the one’s you love do what they need to do to grow strong and beautiful.

One God, One Life, All Loving and All Possible.

I know I am of this Divine Being, I am surrounded by Love and Possibilities.

I know in God all things are possible. I know the messiest parts of life is our greatest strengths manifesting into great possibilities for greater opportunities to know Spirit and understand the value of our life.

I am grateful for all that I have been given, I know there are no coincidence’s or accidents and I am here by Divine Design to experience the full ride.

I let it go and I let it be and I leave it to God!

And So It IS! Amen!

,My dog he has know idea he’s a dog. He’s joyful, loving, playful and just knows the space between my husband and I is made for him.
When I come home from where ever I’ve been he’s extremely happy to see me even if I was only gone for two minuets. He jumps up and wiggles his tail to say, “Hello, I love you, and I missed you.” When I give him a treat he acts like it’s the best treat in the world and when I put fresh water in his bowl he laps it up like fine wine. My dog is happy to just be, while I’m on my computer, he lays besides me and never complains. When we go for a walk he acts like it’s the greatest adventure in the world. Mr. Chavez is his name and loving life whatever comes all the same.

Yeah, can you imagine being as happy as Mr. Chavez with no expectations and no worries? He has it handled.

Life is better with a dog!

Love them anyway!

I once read a Facebook post that said, “your hate doesn’t define the person you are hating it defines you” and I agree. With the elections going on and many of the tragic events in our country and others I have heard a lot of people saying and doing a lot of hateful things but I’ve also seen a lot of people come together and help one another despite their religion, race, or political views.

I see the people out there helping but what bothers me is people are helping well hating a whole religion for something a few people of that religion did. It’s also true with the police. Yes, there are some that are corrupt, but there are many police out there, that are there to serve and protect

Now we have people hating whole religions and a whole work force that is out there to serve and protect but it doesn’t stop there. We have people hating politicians because of their views and then people hate the politician’s family then the people who are running their campaign and the people who are voting for that politician.

It doesn’t stop there. Then someone hates their mother-in-law and there boyfriends kid. Then the boyfriend stops seeing his mother and quits visiting his kid. The kid grows lonely ends up on the street commits a crime and he’s put in jail.

If that’s not enough the girls boyfriend hates her dog, so she takes it the dog pound.

With all the hate people and animals become disposable. If an animal or a child or a parent doesn’t meet  your expectation you just toss them to the waste side.

I say love them anyway. Even if you can’t agree with Donald Trump or Hilary Clinton love them because they are sentient beings, God’s creation. God makes no mistakes. Love the dog, the kid, the person who disagrees with you, and yes, even the person who gives you the finger as he cuts you off on the highway.

Jesus said to love your enemies. I believe he said this because we are all God’s Creation and we are all here by Divine Design.

Yep, this was written pre-election but I still say love them anyway. That doesn’t mean let them take advantage of you or take away what is yours.

 

 I wrote this pre-election

Good Morning,

I love Wayne Dyer and I spent some time listening to him today and a few things came to mind so I thought I’d share them.

With this election going on I’ve seen a lot of mud slinging and a lot of negative things being said. I’ve been guilty of joining in. Jesus says to love your enemies. It’s easy to love our friends but how about those who don’t agree with us. Can we love and have compassion for them?

I am not voting for Donald Trump. Things he speaks of don’t feel right to me. Yet, I send him my love. He too, is a child of God. Another point is he’s in the arena I am not. I do not know how to get votes from the American public. I could just imagine how difficult that could be. We are a great country, we are diverse, and we are very expressive.

I loved President Obama although I didn’t agree with all his politics but he did do a lot for our country. I don’t know if Mrs. Clinton can do the same but I send her love too. I send all the candidates love. There are more than Clinton and Trump. I believe I have to spend time looking at the others but to be honest it’s not easy and at times I find myself shying away from the whole issue.

I do believe in the power of prayer and intuition and that is where my answer will come from. I will not vote from a place of fear but from a place of love. I believe in wide open spaces and one thing my intuition tells me is to keep the walls down and love my neighbor.

Hello, I forgot to post this when I wrote it. Well, D.T. is president and the best I can do is continue to pray and now I look at things a little differently. I must come from a place of love and I need to speak up for the things I believe in.

I believe in love, love all people, I believe in an education system that works for all, religious freedom, gun control, Climate change, animal protection, Planned Parenthood for Women, equal right and others.

Prayer,

Spirit. Divine Presence. Life ever Giving Source.

 I shall not let negative come between myself and Spiritual Truth. I leave the door open to the small voice within (intuition)  that guides me to my highest and greatest qualities.

I am grateful as I see things differently from a higher level of Consciousness.

And So It Is!

 

 

Keeping the faith when things look like they’re going no where but down is probably the most difficult. I once heard someone say, “If God is for you, nothing can be against you.” I thought about it for a long time. What I came to believe is, that even when I’m not showing up in faith or I’m showing up in judgement and in lack, it’s not because God is not with me, it’s because I’m not remembering God is with me.

Speaking out on issues that I believe are important can sometimes seem like I’m being judgmental. So, I’ve been trying to turn it around. I’m going to speak from a place of heart and speak out for the things I believe. I may not always be right but I know God is still with me and I will be guided to the truth. I know I will be guided by keeping the faith.

To me keeping the faith means to pray, meditate and listen to our God given intuition. I know I must practice this daily and when things are looking difficult it might mean I need to pray without ceasing as Jesus has said. I’m here by Divine design and so is every living being, even the ones we don’t understand. To me that means loving and being peaceful to those that are showing up in harmful or cruel ways. But I don’t believe we need to allow those folks to hurt us, our families, or our communities. I believe we must speak out with love and continue to stand in integrity.

I’m starting my practice with what I am for. When I speak out it is going to be what I am for. I am for keeping the faith.

There is only One God, One Universal Divine Mind, I recognize God is in every moment every breath and ever present. I know I am of the Divine. I am a loving expression of Spirit. Every being is of Spirit. All life is of God. I know that each of us is here to express, to explore, and to dive deeper into our greatest self. I am grateful that I am here to love, live and have joy. Thankful for my God given life and I am so blessed to have a voice to speak out with love and integrity. I loving release this prayer into the Law of Mind. I let it go, I let it be,

And So It Is, Amen

 

 

 

I often believed my family was my biggest joy and that is what family is meant to be. I love my children and grandchildren dearly. I love my parents and sister dearly. In saying that no one else has ever been able to break my heart faster then my family. I’ve been married twice. Still strong in my second marriage. My ex-husband and I had our differences but it didn’t make me feel like my heart was torn apart. I’ve had friends walk away and a boyfriend or two when I was young that dumped me but yet I knew as long as I had my family I was okay.

The problem is when your family starts tearing at each other as a grandmother, mother, sister, a daughter you want to fix it save the relationships bring the love and joy back in but you can’t because they are where they are at that moment. You step back and you wonder. What can I do? How can I bring the joy back? This shouldn’t be happening we’re family.

Then while sitting here trying to contemplate I had a “AHA” moment. I do love my family dearly and I accept them where they are. I’m not here to fix them they are complete and whole. Life is a chose and they choose the life that they want. If things we’re meant to be the way I was thinking they should be they would be. So I quit the should thinking and started praying for the higher good of my family and the whole world. It’s not up to me or any one human being to decide how life should be. Life is as it is. If we want better we start with ourselves not our children not our community but the one inside.

So today I love myself completely without judgment. I love my children and the rest of the world where they are without judgment. No matter how twisted someone seems to be they still deserve love and that is a truth.

God Bless the Whole!

Proverbs 3:27 “Do not refuse to do that which is good, when it is in the power of your hand to do it”

Proverbs 4:7 “Wisdom is the principle thing; therefore get wisdom; and with all your substance get understanding.”